-Friday night, 'Alumni' gathering for Reclaim, the gender therapy group I used to attend. Was extremely nervous about going and seeing people, but it turned out great ( Read more... )

All worry, all the time. My stomach is clenched and hollow even though I just ate. I close my eyes while I walk, imagining that I could just fall asleep. Every exhale feels deeper and heavier than before.

"Distance" was my word of the last week. What felt like half my time was consumed by what spinpsychle accurately described as "sitting in a chair and ( Read more... )

Minneapolis-Angles, grey shrapnel poking into the sky-curtain. Large cities are lonely places. All the people rush by zip-zip-zip like they aren't touching the ground and you are standing stunned in a crosswalk. Glass alleys reach tall and make you feel small, sidewalks pull your feet down into mud and mire. Everyone sees through you; not into ( Read more... )

I really like Minneapolis. It is full of concrete and tar and smog and angled symmetry. Most of downtown is made out of glass. At night it is a golden tower, like a lighthouse. There are always things happening, always people hurrying in and out of clockwork rooms ( Read more... )

Sometimes I lose myself in the midst of my own life ( Read more... )

My trip up north kind of put things in perspective for me. I'm making a list of ways I'm going to work on improving my life, but I need you, dear folk, to yell at me when I neglect them (because you know I will ( Read more... )

I love speaking to deaf-mutes;
fingertip grace-notes,
watching letters fall off your face.

Image: Perched above the world,
bolstered by someone's (someone else's?)
words.
Hips cocked like a .22 (too cliché, but always true),
defiant stance: Supergirl.
She's got armor plate of birds' wings
and glass tiles,
fueled on leaves and black-paper cutouts. ( Read more... )

I am still tired,
still scared,
still unsure.


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At risk of sounding like a spiritually-pretentious idiot:
I gathered a lot of strength from the city today. It's a beautiful sense of woven, anonymous community.

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( Two more videos and whole ton of pictures )

A city, within a city, within a city...
when I drive down unfinished streets ( Read more... )